When we're too weary to pray

I read this beautiful poem on a devotional, and I just had to share. I don't know how many times lately I've found myself in this exact spot - just weary. What a wonderful reminder to me to know that God is that Perfect Father who knows best how to love us and give us the rest that we need as we lay our burdens at the foot of His Cross.

"I'm too tired to trust and too tired to pray,
Said one, as the over-taxed strength gave way.
The one conscious thought by my mind possessed,
Is, oh, could I just drop it all and rest.


Will God forgive me, do you suppose,
If I go right to sleep as a baby goes,
Without an asking if I may,
Without ever trying to trust and pray?

Will God forgive you? why think, dear heart,
When language to you was an unknown art,
Did a mother deny you needed rest,
Or refuse to pillow your head on her breast?


Did she let you want when you could not ask?
Did she set her child an unequal task?
Or did she cradle you in her arms,
And then guard your slumber against alarms?


Ah, how quick was her mother love to see,
The unconscious yearnings of infancy.
When you've grown too tired to trust and pray,
When over-wrought nature has quite given way:

Then just drop it all, and give up to rest,
As you used to do on a mother's breast,
He knows all about it--the dear Lord knows,
So just go to sleep as a baby goes;

Without even asking if you may,
God knows when His child is too tired to pray.
He judges not solely by uttered prayer,
He knows when the yearnings of love are there.


He knows you do pray, He knows you do trust,
And He knows, too, the limits' of poor weak dust.
Oh, the wonderful sympathy of Christ,
For His chosen ones in that midnight tryst,


When He bade them sleep and take their rest,
While on Him the guilt of the whole world pressed--
You've given your life up to Him to keep,
Then don't be afraid to go right to sleep."



Author Unknown

Happy Birthday, Rebecca!!

Dearest Daughter,

Oh, how I love this smile because it is you - happy, relaxed, just enjoying life. You have been such a treasure to nurture and disciple these last 19 years!! I can't imagine a better child to "break me in" as a Mom. You've been very patient with me as I used you as the guinea pig, and I am very grateful for that. We love you so much just because you're you. We especially love the big heart that you have for Christ and the desire you have to serve Him in ALL of your life. You always have a welcoming smile to greet anyone that comes through our doors, and you look for ways to make them welcome - even when I'm oblivious to the world. :) You are compassionate with those around you and you always have an ear to listen to their hurts and concerns.

Continue to keep your eyes focused on Christ as you seek the path He has for you. Seek the counsel of Godly people and surround yourself with those that will sharpen you and encourage you to grow in your walk with God. And remember.....we love you.....no matter what!!!

Turning 14!

Dearest Son Joshua,

What a joyous day it was when we welcomed you into our family. We had no idea what to anticipate that day - joy or sorrow - with all that could have gone wrong due to complications. However, here we are 14 years later knowing that God's Hand delivered you safely through so many medical trials and challenges. You show no signs of those days of distress, and instead, you continually remind me of the Glory of God's Hand in all things. You are becoming such a courageous man of God with your desire to study and grow in wisdom as well as knowledge. I love to hear you share your thoughts on God's Word or ideas you have to make this world a better place for all of us. I enjoy your servant's heart as you help me or your sisters around the house and as you encourage and mentor your brother. I feel so blessed to see you take on tasks that will bless Nana during this time as well as your willingness to help anyone who calls and needs an extra pair of hands. It is such a pleasure to see you stepping up and helping around the ranch in an effort to take on tasks that only Daddy can do. It is also so much fun to just laugh with you over a story, joke or memory. We love you so much - just the way you are, no matter what.

New post with.... goggles???

Yes, you have read the title correctly. I have finally posted a new post (yeah!!), and it does have to do with goggles.

I know I am not the only person in the world to have this problem of onions stinging yours eyes when you are cutting/chopping/ and totally annihilating them. Some friends told me about a funny story a while back. There were these children that every time their mom would chop onions, they would run and put their goggles on. At first, I thought that a funny story and rather silly. However, when dear Momma instructed me to chop some onions, I decided I would give it a try. So, off to find the goggles! (kids, do not try this at home! ;))

So, my conclusion; the experiment DID work!! Thank you friends for sharing that story and saving me many hours of heart and eye ache! :)

OK, just so you can see what in the world I looked like, here are some pictures. I am holding some chopped onions in my hand.

(OK, I tried to go for a serious look. I was on a mission!)

Late again....

Well, I am afraid that I am late again in typing up an update! As you probably guessed, we have been pretty busy with cattle work. We are finally coming to an end of the hectic busy season and are enjoying some quiet time.

The most interesting thing that happened lately was a square dance! :) We set up a square dance a couple weeks ago. Posting pictures is great, but it sure doesn't capture all the fun everyone has. :)

Settin' up

Our warm up song: The chicken dance!

Making a square of their own. ;)

Doing the 'Courtesy Turn.

Now do a 'doe Si doe'!

Turn to that corner!

Now do a 'Right and Left Grand'! (Are we confusing you yet?)

Ladies makin' the 'Right hand Star'

Ladies go in, Men Sashay

I like the skipping! ;)

What? You didn't think that was funny?

Oops.....No wonder our square kept messin' up!!

What is goin' on in that square? ;)

And here are a couple of pictures of us visitin' in between dances.

Other than that, the Heckendorn Herd has been workin' some cows, putting 'em in thar rightful pastures, and enjoying watching all the baby kivs run and leap aroun' in thuh air. :)

Also, if you couldn't tell, trying out a new dialect of cowpoker language. ;)

In Christ's love,

Sarah

Heckendorn Update

Hello Friends!



The Heckendorn Herd has been up to a lot these past few weeks. So, here goes for an update! :)



First, we had three bull sales in March. Our first one was at Roswell. We have a family tradition with our bull sales. If our bulls sell well we go and eat at Cattle Baron for supper (Fancier than normal steak house in Roswell.) If they don't sell well, we eat at McDonald's. This year, we ate at Golden Corral because our bulls didn't do really well, but it wasn't really bad either. After enjoying a leisurely dinner with some friends, we started our three hour drive home.



The next weekend, we had our second bull sale in Belen. This one was a day trip, so it was nice to not miss any nights on our own beds. :) It was disappointing, but we praise God for what we do get, even if we would like more.



Our last bull sale was in Tucumcari. We went up the night before and stayed at my grandparent's house. This sale went pretty well. Of course, we understand the circumstances of the economy, so considering this we were happy with what we did get.



Last week, our friend Joe Wells came over. He was taking a blacksmith class in Moriarty and stayed at our house. After the second day, he met two people from Texas that were also at the class. He invited them out for dinner, and we had a blast. Atlanta and Cimmaron Shannon were great people to be around and can play the guitar and fiddle really well. We decided to have them come out for dinner every night for the rest of the week. So, after several late nights and early mornings we were glad to sleep in a little later after they all went home. However, we thoroughly enjoyed them while they were here. :)



So, what is coming up for the Heckendorn Herd? Well, in two weeks we have our CAPE (Christian Association for Parent Educators) Convention. The Herd does the registration as a family. We are able to meet a lot of new people every day and see some familiar faces of friends met previous years. You can check it out at http://www.cape-nm.org/.

After convention, we are looking forward to a week of catching up on family time and maybe throwing in some sewing for the ladies. :)



Right now Joe's older sister is staying with us. She has a job here in Moriarty at Shorty's Bar-B- Que. :) We are going to let her rent out our little apartment while she is working. Until we get that ready, however, she is staying with us in the house. (I am afraid that she had to listen to giggling and hard-to-control laughter last night. We won't say from whom. ;))



So, there is your latest update on The Herd.



In Christ's Love,

Sarah

Blessed...

Hello Friends!


Last week had blessing after blessing for us. Back in January we had to test a bull, one of our big herd bulls no less, for a double recessive gene called "Curly Calf". If both parents have it, the offspring will be born dead. We have sons of this bull selling in March at some bull sales, and then we have calves of his dropping on the ground now. So, last week we got the test results back and found out that he did not have the gene!


Once again, last week we were testing our yearling bulls. During the test they give the bull a shot in his tail to see if he has TB (tuberculosis). One bull ended up reacting to it. When you have TB in one of your cattle, you have to quarantine the whole herd and start over. Then, for 3 years after that, you have to test EACH cow/bull/calf for the TB at 10$ a head. Our vet had to contact the USDA to come and check the bull. They did a different test for the TB and found out that he was reacting to the Avian TB not bovine TB (we checked for the latter one). The man was saying that this is pretty common because we have chickens and birds eating out of their feed and all that. The blessing is that it is no big deal.

Then, last Saturday as we were getting up from lunch, we saw a vehicle pull up to our yard. We found some dear friends of ours unloading a dishwasher! Our dishwasher had died on us last year so we had been washing by hand, which had been no problem at all. However, here come our friends saying that they found a great deal on it and thought of us. It has just reminded us daily about the Fruit of the Spirit. :)



Now, I ended up not getting around to Mom's birthday post, so I will just say quickly that we were trying to get together with some friends, and Mom's birthday ended up being the date that we were both available. So, we made it a whole day affair and really enjoyed ourselves.

After dinner, all of us sat around the table and took turns telling what we liked about Mom (that is our family tradition). There were many wet eyes afterward as we mentioned the loving spirit of gentleness and diligence to do her best serving her Lord. :)


God Bless,
Sarah

Birthday fun!

Newcomer!

Hello All!

I have a friend who is raising Labrador Retriever pups and selling them and making quite a profit. After listening to that I came up with a plan of action and am myself going into the lab pup business! I bought the last female from my friend on Sunday. My little pup is a golden color and is doing well. We are calling her "Daisy", but her registered name will probably be different as you want Mom and Dad's name in their name to show her pedigree. Lady and Tramp aren't just accepting her as I hoped. We think they want to make sure that they are still loved and the "older...whatever they think they are, ones". Tramp is getting older and probably is not enjoying the enthusiasm of Daisy, but he seems to accept her as long as she leaves his aching joints alone. She loves to follow him when we take her outside. :) Lady is a little more jealous as this is a new girl, and she has been the only one so far. In a few weeks, it will feel like we have always had Daisy, and we will wonder what life was like without her. For now, Mom and I aren't getting much sleep with her barking to go out then you have to be with her till she goes to sleep. Oh, well. That will pass, too.

Caleb is enjoying playing with the puppy and vice-versa. I love it too as I have a tired puppy at the end of the day, and she does so much better going to sleep and sleeping when she is worn out! Dad asked me the other night if I felt like I had a baby. I thought about it and thought of the differences. Then, I thought of when Daisy and I were both tired, and she looked at me, crawled on my lap and fell asleep with her head under my arm. What can beat that feeling, whether it is animal or baby. I thought of how often we fall asleep in God when life is easy, yet we should be putting our heads under his arm so we can't see when life is hard. So I prayed and just enjoyed the quiet of the early morning as by the time I was really ready to fall asleep she was ready to go out again!!

Love,

Rebecca

The pictures aren't great- it is hard to catch a good picture of a playful puppy!

New Year already!

Hello everyone!

Well, another year gone by. This year has gone by so quickly it is unbelievable!
I am afraid that I didn't keep my New Year's resolutions. It is rather disappointing to read over your list and realize that you haven't kept any of them! However, I am more determined to keep my new ones that I am making this year.
A friend was telling me about a man on a radio station. He said that he kept one of his new year resolutions: That he would never attend another new year's party until next year! :)
I think I want to add that to my list......at least I would be able to keep it! :)
I am exchanging letters with a friend, and she was telling me how she would really like to delight in the Lord. We may read our Bibles and go to church, but are we really delighting in the Lord? If we aren't, then how do we start?
Job 22:26 tells us, "For then you will delight in the Almighty and lift up your face to God."
If we are delighting in Him, we should be able to have a new look at the things He has made.

I am guilty of going through my day without really noticing little flowers that He has made, or thanking Him for my family. I think that we all do things like that. However, if we are supposed to delight in the Lord, then we should be thankful for things like that.

Psalm 1:2 "But his delight is in the Law of the Lord, and in His Law he meditates day and night."

Not only should we be thankful, but we should be thankful ALL the time! We should be meditating on God's Word and living by it.

But how do we delight in the Lord? We see the commandments of it, but how do we apply it to our lives?

God wants us to LIVE the Fruit of the Spirit. They are Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Gentleness, Faithfulness, and Self-control. The one I would like to focus on is Joy.

We usually think about Joy as being happy and fun. However, the word enjoy has a different meaning. It means contentment! So, when we are full of Joy, we should be full of contentment. We should be content with the things, big and small, that God has given us. If we are content or full of Joy, we are delighting in the Lord!

Have you ever done something for someone? Maybe they are sick and need a glass of water. Or maybe your mom is very tired, but the dishes need to be washed. Instead of reminding her that those need to be done, you do it for her. How do you feel? I always feel happy! I am content when I do things for other people.

Philippians 2:3 "Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind let each of you regard one another as more important than yourself."

If we are focused on serving others before ourselves we are delighting in God because we are following His Word. We are delighting in the Law of the Lord!

I remember a time when I went through a "selfish streak". I didn't want to do anything and I felt rather depressed. (I know some of you are shocked! haha) I was very sad. Then, my dad held an office party in his new office for all his workers and people that were in the same company. He asked Mom, Rebecca, and me to come help. We did deli trays and such. As I was watching tables, I noticed that the chip bowl was empty. I filled it up. Then someone asked if I could get more dressing. I was starting to serve others, and I started to feel happy. By the end of the day, I was no longer sad. I felt great and ready to serve anyone who asked for help. I learned a very good lesson. When we are selfish (which is against God's Word) we are sad and/or depressed; just the way Satan and his minions want us to feel. When we are serving others and are delighting in His Law, we are defeating those minions and drawing closer to God.

I would like to give another example that I was told from my Dear Mama. :)
We were sitting around the table discussing a Bible verse (Galatians 5:16-25 to be exact.). As we were discussing the particular part "....For the flesh sets itself against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh....." Mom gave this example:

All the time, there is a war raging. It is a war between the flesh and the Spirit, or the minions and the Angels. When we start to walk in the flesh (ex. get mad at our brothers and say hurtful words or don't forgive them) we are helping the minions win against the Angels. When we turn away wrath, we are helping the Angels defeat the minions.

Now, I will tell you that you should really remember this when you start walking in the flesh. I can tell you it works! The other night we had stayed up very late, and I was getting a little grumpy. I was mad at my sister, but I didn't want to admit it or say sorry. As I laid in bed thinking about it and scowling, I started thinking about the fight going on. I could see the evil minion pushing the Angel down every time I had a hateful thought. I started getting worried. What if that minion beat my Angel? I couldn't let it do that. I started thinking about how I was in the wrong and not my sister. Then, I started feeling repentful about what I had done. I could see the minion slowly falling; struggling for the winning slice, but, my Angel was already defeating him to a degree that would make it difficult to get up. Then, I felt VERY sorry and asked for forgiveness. The minion fell down in defeat and the Angel held up his sword in victory. Now, this may sound rather silly and not completely theologically accurate to you, but it brought a picture to me that made the verse so real! I also know that whenever I start feeling like that again, I will think about that Angel and the minion.

I would love to hear every one's thoughts about this post.
Keep striving for the best in you, and striving to do your best to delight in Him!

God Speed,
Sarah